It’s amazing that when you put a goal out into the web-is-sphere – that it becomes extremely hard to actually abide by it. I tried to think that it would be possible to write something down everyday and post it onto the internet. I mean, come on! Really? What was I actually thinking? I am NOT that organized and disciplined. I like to “think” I am, but let’s be real – I’m not.
With that said, I think I must have been going through a week of just wanting to be an over achiever and felt I could do everything. (this happens people! It’s weird and I think it keeps me balanced or else I’d be slobbish) I went and typed up a post saying, “I would write every day” and then I set up a routine for my son, that I thought would be manageable every day – and I planned this, and I planned that – scheduled so many things……. To a miniscule number of positive outcomes.
What a way to slam myself with disappointment, right? I mean who does this? I get to a day like today and I look at myself and honestly wonder – why do you do this to yourself? Even though the failures aren’t life changing or threatening – they’re failures and can dig at my soul.
sigh……. I dunno?
I guess I should maybe do some research on my personality or something, because I feel I can be all things and do all things – and yet I completely know my limitations……. Is this over confidence or just plain pride? Or dare I say it – madness? For those of you that know me – you immediately know which one I’m going to pick – over confidence. It just sits more comfortably as a “zone” to be classified in.
But it’s amazing that with the years I’ve been an adult that I’ve learned to look at the over confidence and be like, “ok, go for it – what do you have to lose? You try – you fail – no loss. You try – you succeed – tick, something achieved”
Just reading that back to myself, is honestly the way that I look at a lot of my life. Relationships, not so much – but everything else – BOOM! Oh-va-con-fi-dent.
I’m still trying to figure out myself when it comes to relationships – but that’s a post for another day.
Today – I just had that in my thought bubble and wrote it down.
It’s ok to fail I guess – as long as I’m not hurting anyone in the process, right?
What do you think? Pop me a comment……